The beginning of my journey

I must start by saying this last year was the hardest of my life. I have been through many tragedies in my life, but none as hard as loosing my own father has been. He was my everything, and in an instant his card was called, and he was gone. I remember it like it was yesterday. The day before my 26th birthday, and I found him myself. He was all I had, and then he was gone. I felt my heart rip out of my chest, and then it returned to me as a different one. I lost myself for seven months, and had no reason to live in my own eyes other than for my children. Finally I realized he would not approve of me just wasting away to nothing, and I picked myself up with no help from anyone, and moved on. I decided to make the man proud of me, and entered Kaplan University Online for my degree in Psychology with an emphasis in Applied Behavior Analysis. I entered this program, because it hits very close to home for me. My son was diagnosed with PDD-NOS or Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. At two years old, and it has effected every aspect of our lives. He is a wonderful child though, and without the services that he received, he would not have been able to attend a main stream school with any success. I want to one day be able to diagnose children, and help them the same way our son, and ourselves were helped. There are many children out there today being diagnosed on the spectrum, and I feel that I can be a great asset to this field one day, and know that I would make a much better psychologist than the one who diagnosed my own son. She was heartless, so to say, and I feel that people deserve a psychologist who understands where they are coming from, and have been there themselves. I have taken the initiative to get my degree, and this blog is where I will post everything about what it's like to be a full time mother of two children, one four, and one five diagnosed on the spectrum, going back to school full time, and handling Bi-Polar disorder with my head held high.